i am so very very sorry  from the depth of my soul
for all the unease and the truth and the lies
for what you meant to me
was only the underneath of your disguise

for all i have seen and went through
after all the misery and pain you caused
when it was all so close to the end
after i tried my best and you tried none


search me
you'll never understand
find me
no second chances
scream all you want
i'll never trust you again
no more thoughts
i am feeling as if i am talking with god himself
now i only want to die


fake smiles  you put on for cover
without them your truth will shine
never bother  i will only fade
and time will pass on by

the thoughts of sadness
they come more often than you
what will be left from us  nothing more than you
in the end you'll see i was right


seek me
you'll never reach me
watch me
i'll never make the same mistake twice
run forever all you want
i'll stop chasing you after the first stop
so know this
it will be the last thing you'll ever know from me


after a while nothing for you counts
for all the tears  unworthy of the joy
for the last time  words will not come
because this time there will be no ending rhyme