I wish, like everyone
that wishes will fill my heart
I wish to be
what I am not
I wish to put the glasses
and say that everything
will be just fine
and believe in it
I wish that you could
understand me as you used to
I wish to be strong enough
to stand infront of me
I wish to get out of myself
to get over myself
but in all those wishes
the confuse feels more
confusing  than ever
and in all those circles
I feel I lost it somehow
forgot how to find it

so, more than all
I wish
to wish to die
as I used to.