| What makes me a psychopath? A psychopath is someone whofeels no empathy towards his or her victims, and has no
 general feelings or remorse. That's me. I felt no sympathy
 or empathy when I killed those children. I just wanted to
 fulfill my own personal lust. The thought of empowering a
 helpless victim and seeing their last moments of life gave
 me too much pleasure. I HAD to experience it.
 
 The trill of the alarm woke me. My eyes slowly opened to a
 calm and rather sunny day. The sun shone brightly through
 the thin curtains. I've been meaning to get some new ones.
 Why do I keep putting it off?
 
 I stepped into the shower, the cool water nourishing my body
 on this lazy morning. Today was the day I fulfilled my
 lifetime ambition and final got to experience what it feels
 like to control someone to their death. They told me it felt
 good. Once a quick shower was out of the way, I had a shave.
 As I stood in front of the bathroom mirror, foam covering my
 face, I looked at the reflection. This face will, by
 tomorrow, be in every newspaper in every city in the
 country. There will also be mug shots of this face in police
 stations throughout the country. And you know what the best
 thing is? Only I know about it.
 
 Once I had gotten dressed and had some breakfast (that
 reminds me, why do those Rice Krispies make that irritating
 noise?), I went back upstairs. I walked up a second flight
 of stairs, into the attic. There, I kept a little safe in
 the corner of the room. A safe full of money? Jewellery?
 Important documents? No. This safe was full of the very
 tools that would help me to achieve my glorious deed. Two
 AK-47 guns, and seven rounds of bullets. After all, they
 told me this was the best weapon one could use.
 
 After packing my tools into an innocent enough looking
 Thermalite briefcase, I began my journey. I was dressed so
 smartly that other 'suits' walking by failed to spot the
 fact that I was walking in a complete opposite direction to
 the office blocks that dominate this area. I was heading for
 the local primary school.
 
 Upon arriving at the school, all that could be heard was the
 cheerful playing sound from the children. The little boys
 trying to get a game of football going for the last ten
 minutes before school starts, whilst the little girls busily
 playing hopscotch. There was no conformity, no obedience,
 and no rules. Just innocent, helpless, obedient children.
 Lots of them.
 
 I knew now that it was time. All those years when I was a
 child, constantly being picked on because I was fat. Fatty
 they called me. They used to take my lunch money. They would
 hit me. I felt like crying, but I never did. I never did
 release my emotions. Well, until now, that is.
 
 My briefcase unlocked, and I dropped it to the ground. Out
 came the first gun I could grip. The icy cold feel sent a
 judder through my body. I pointed it in the direction of
 whomever my eyes first glared upon. It was a little boy.
 Probably about nine years of age, with blond parted hair. He
 was standing in goal for his football team.
 
 Suddenly, his hair was not blond. It became gray. Everything
 became a mixture of black and white. No longer could I see
 colorful school uniforms and different hair colors.
 Everything had become gray. But not for long.
 
 I unleashed the first round of bullets. All I could hear now
 were screams of the children. Not even the sound of the gun
 firing could be heard. All that could be heard was one wild,
 long, loud scream. Suddenly my gun stopped firing. There was
 almost a silence that seemed to last for eternity. But not
 for that long.
 
 The second gun came out and the firing began again. In an
 almost random fashion, bullets were being sprayed all over
 the playground. This playground, once a fortress of
 innocence, now turned into nothing more than a battlefield.
 A bloody reminder that they still exist. We can't see them
 anymore, but they're still around us. Everywhere.
 
 After the second round, there seemed to be an eerie silence.
 Almost as though I was only person in the world that was
 alive. No ambulance sirens, no police sirens, no teachers
 coming screaming out of the school. Just a sudden emptiness
 in the abyss of time.
 
 Carefully, I walked further into the playground, trying not
 to get my new shoes wet with innocent blood. All I could see
 were bodies. Bloody bodies. What had these children done?
 Their crisp white cotton shirts impugned with the crimson
 reminders of my madness. Their blond hair sprinkled with
 droplets of blood. The hopscotch grid chalked out on the
 surface had become reddened. The numbers almost impossible
 to make out. The football, once black and white, was now
 covered with the bloody reminders of the day I got my own
 back.
 
 Suddenly, I felt something. It was the feeling. The feeling
 I had long yearned to experience. The feeling of
 empowerment. I had control of these children. I could do
 what I wanted, with whomever I wanted, whenever I wanted.
 This was for every time you stole my orange juice. This is
 for every time you took my lunch money and I went hungry.
 This is for every time I was called 'Fatty'. This is for all
 the times I wanted to cry, but resisted. This is my crying.
 This is my payback. This is my revenge. These are your
 children lying here. Your children.
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