I don't know if it will ever feel the same

I imagine one day it will feel better
I don't have what to compare
And I don't think I will ever forget her

And still
My memory is weak
And I forget more
My memory is shocked
And I remember things I thought I forgot

And I don't know if what I remember is real
I don't know if anyone else remembers it too
I don't know if what I am thinking is true
Or if I am making it up - as I go along

And still
I see these things
These thoughts in my head
My mind exploding
And full of things I try to forget

No
No regret
No
Just wish it was different
No
No shame
Just wish it was easier
To explain how it felt

And still
I think of it
Even when I think I forget
And still I dream of it
Even though I try to escape
My mind has one thing in mind
And I try to block it all the time
And though it's getting easier
Still
I think of her.

4-Feb-06
5:38:02 AM