I walk across this daily route

With the urgent need to open my mouth
When I'll see you, passing by
And suddenly feel my body deny

Wish I had the right to speak
Ask you one minor question
Know you a step further
I can't, I just cease to think
When I'm melting from your impression
Feeling so small and out of this border

Every day, new plan, a new operation
So many changes, but still the same mission
Confusing me
Challenging myself
Confronting you
Is to confront my face
Cannot move
Enjoying every second of watch
Cannot intrude your life
Disallowing approach...

This is love masochism
Loving just to forbid a contact
And I enlarge this schism
Every time I cannot act
Causes me pain in this prison
A constant heart attack

Wish you would start it all for me
And save me so much self-violence
I'll have the right to act free
...When you'll end my self-indulgence