When I was in you house

I wanted so much
to sit by your side
and caress you
and smile.

And I got up and sat
and our looks kind of met
but a pink gaze no'ed me
and I stumbled
and hushed.

I was green as I watched
while those yellowed and old
hands where running
where mine should
have been.

I have read through your words
and they moved me, and worse
I have realized now
it was really
all wrong.

I won't say I'm sorry
because I shouldn't worry
I just need to know
have the faith not to go
.and the courage