I'm doing everything wrong
But you don't mind the mistakes that I'm making
You think that I'm strong
But I just keep looking for the perfect ending
And then, when we're alone among the crowd
Alone together, and I'm fine
You put your hand around my waist
And whisper "I'm so lucky that you're mine"

And when at night you fall asleep
I always try to run away
If you wake up and say "don't go"
I answer back "you shouldn't want me to stay"
I'm screwing this up so badly
And I'm a mess inside my head
You look at me and whisper "trust me"
But I pretend to sleep at the other side of the bed

And you're falling asleep
As I lie awake
And I'm drifting
And I'm thinking:
How can it be that staying with you
Became the hardest thing for me to do?