i believe that without her in the picture the color will
fade away.

without her words and touch the light will turn black, pitch
black

black hole
a black hole wide open sucks everything inside into the
oblivion into the abyss.

I am afraid to be alone once again, afraid of the changes to
come.

my boat is small and the waves are huge, and i don't know
how to swim, i will drown in this horrible sea

so wide and open nothing in sight. my guiding light faded.

pain awaits me in the inner corridors of my mind, lurking in
the shadows of what was once the love of my life.

a great space between me and reality, a space with tiny
small thin bridges, fine lines of what was once the perfect
life i needed.

where is it now, where did you go
where is it now where is my light


i am a light of my own
the only light left, now i have my memories to guide me,
before they will fade too.

before they will slide away from my mind, into the shadows
of pain.

pain, let's me know I'm alive, gives me a wake up call of
what I achieved in life, of what you once were.

I am tired but your words echo in my ears

tells me to keep on going, to keep on living, to keep on
fighting for my goals.

i am afraid because there is a life without you

only when i will let go, only then the colors will come back
to me. the spirit will rise once more in glory and valor

the kingdom will rise again from ashes.
and I can once more call myself king of life
king, without a queen.

Checkmate