You did it again, I guess.
You didn't have the brave to show your face.
You are the most fearful man I ever met.
I don't know why I care so much from you, and you even don't
care at all.

You know,
I'm just waiting for the right moment to leave you. So that
I can get through with my life.
At least live my life in peace.
But I don't think that it will come soon.
I just don't want to see you, to hug you, or just I don't
want to want you, anymore.
I want you to get out of my life, so that I can get over
you.
You know, if you could just tell me what is it in your
thought, in your mind, it could be less complicated.
But again, I don't think that you will ever do it.
Because you are always disappoint me. Over and over again.
And I don't know why, but I'm asking myself all the time,
why?
I'm asking myself what make you do that?
In fact, what make you not do that?
But I know now one thing. I know that I'm so confused, and I
don't have the power to fight with you, or even to think of
it so much.
So I guess that it will stay like that in the meantime.
Is not that I'm satisfied with this solution, but again, I
guess there's nothing that I can do. And even if there is, I
don't have the power for this.
Of course that I have the option to leave you. But
regretfully, I don't have the courage to do that.
So, I'll live my usual life. I'll do the usual things that I
do every day.
Until some day you will notice me, and you will understand
me, understand yourself.
So I'll just wish that everything will be o.k.
Just like you said. A long time ago.
If you remember it at all...

Still love you, with all the problems,
Me.


[2006]