What is this pain I feel?


Is it for real?
How to deal?
It aches inside of me
Like a thrill
And makes me wonder why it is here?
And here?


It's so damn near
To bear this wear
It makes me fear
Of things I don't want to gear
Want to make it better here


Is it for real?
How to deal?
It's like they tell me to pay the bill
Something I did?
Someone I misread?


Its here


I don't want it my dear
Help me kill this pain I fear
Like a magical pill
And go up the hill
To places I want to reach
For passions that I want to be in each
Want to feel the warmth of your heart
Like a healing beam
I want to scream