There's something killing you at night
Or so you scream at me
Tell me what it is or are you shy?
As a child I'd go to sleep with a light
On my side with folded knees
I guess I'm afraid of the dark but why?

Well these childhood memories of home
They don't really bring a smile
It wasn't bad but I seem to get this frown
And now with so much time alone
Well mom & dad it's been a while
I'm so glad I don't need you to get around

The way you always expected more
It's really not a healthy thing
The more I did for you it ate me up inside
Then you were surprised when I closed the door
What could all my efforts bring?
You've paved my way so long and rough and wide

And all this time just getting you to breathe
Just trying to tell you how alone I am
It's all my fault just like everything
Looking at this mirror and it's crying coz I'm damned

Home was never here or you or all these games around
These attics in my head will get me killed

12/2005