I saw my reflection in the water
And she smiled like a thief
She said
"You can't be both the wound
And the one who finds relief."

Then I lit a candle to memory
Watched the past slip down the drain
There's no grace in resurrection
Only discipline in pain

It's you versus you
And I know the cost
I gave up heaven
Just to feel what I have lost

One of us must die tonight
Not in blood, but out of light
I killed the part that begged and bled
The dreamer's gone, the fool is dead
But I still kiss you in my mind
(Again)

I stitched my name in silence
On the inside of my skin
Every rule I broke was sacred
Just to let the dark begin
You were holy in your hunger...
I was starving for the truth

It's you versus you
And the mirror won't lie
One claims the throne
While the other must die

I was faithful to my failure
Like a monk without a god
I gave up the right to suffer
And called that self love
But in the quiet
I still hear your breath
Like a ghost that knows
It has nothing left

One of us must die tonight
The fire or the frostbite
I chose the blade of discipline
And carved away what might have been
Still I dream you back to life
In the corners of my heart
(Every night)

I wore forgiveness like a muzzle
Just to quiet down the screams
Built a temple out of silence
Then burned it in my dreams

I wasn't made for healing
I was carved to understand
That some hands were made for breaking
Even when they try to mend

You were holy in your hunger
I was starving for the proof
A saint of ruin, crowned in blood

I burned the altar of my youth


"בְּרָא לִי אֱלֹהִים לֵב טָהוֹר"