A flurry of raindrops fall on the window,
They obscure and fade everything that is outside,
Can't seem to even tell them apart;
Just like the endless tears that I seem to bleed,
Wounded internally, eternally.
But somehow it has become
the only way to communicate all the hurt that's inside
All the pain and bitterness;
They are now my only true friends.

There are too many words but not enough feel,
Too much blame and too much hate,
But can't take the risk of saying something,
Drowning inside vast oceans of guilt.
Left alone to face the biting cold,
May be wise but getting too old,
The strength to care even a little have all but gone,
A lone wolf by choice and by force.

Every day, it's all the same,
Bleeding words are said without thought or respect,
A broken heart can never truly mend
When it takes too many blows,
Dying from a blood loss.
Take a dive from a cliff,
There is so much in-between,
Maybe it's better to become so alienated and cold,
Ablaze from the outside, dead and frozen on the inside.

I have lost my strength,
I have lost my sense,
Never thought I would be standing here
With nothing to truly keep me here.
I have lost my place,
I have lost my space,
I have lost my faith,
I have lost my self.