you'll never know
all the pain there is in me
if you did
you'd wish it away
i am aching endlessly
re-living all these moments
of failure, joy, love, and pain
thinking what i've done wrong
and how bad you hurt me
without even realizing
my love for you never dies down
it burns, so hot
it's flames consuming my very soul
spending my days and nights
in total oblivion
nothing but despair
sense of loss
desire and passion
for the flesh
does not shift my focus away
but sharpens my pain
for you
you never leave my side
always here to stay
i cannot find rest
each of my happiest moments
is filled with agony
forever doomed
to bathe in this hollowness
this terrible shallowness
engulfs me
nowhere to escape