A two times thing? Nothing is a two times thing.
Maybe, some things are meant to be a one time thing only,
lightning never strikes twice-here's a one time thing for
you. Falling down in a room full of new people, that the
kind of shit you really hope turns out to be a one time
thing- but it never is, you're either one of those
fall-down-in-the-middle-of-the-room people, or you're not.
And if it happened at least once, welcome to my world.
So what I started saying, was that it does not work like
that. I make the rules for this whole event. When you go
head to head with me, well, body to body, you do not get to
decide. If you really want to be able to set some rules you
have to be older, at least to be allowed to drink.
Rules are not that hard to set, it's basically don't get
attached, even if you where dropped real hard on what was
supposed to be your mind-control-center, and after one
(yeah, sure, the best) night in your life you think that it
seams that something else will happen for a change, don't be
fooled- the heat you feel around your chest is just my
cigarette. I really have to smoke sometimes.
Besides, it used to be my end of the deal- all the lies
about what I felt, all the hopes for dreams that fade when
morning rises, or at least when I'm done agreeing and get
dressed. Now, now I just disconnect. I enjoy all the naked
agreeing for strange or semi-strange people, but I do not
connect it to same ''girl-emotion'' the ''putting out brings
love'' for desperate non-so-attractive or self confidante
girls, or the other approach, also known as ''not putting
out keep the guy around long enough'' you know, the ''he'll
love you for how ever the fuck you are'' approach. That's
the free-independent-proud approach, and frankly my dear, I
don't give a damn. Not every problematic, sarcastic and
paranoid bottle has its own unique cork. Some bottles are
even purchased at a small quick-mart, with a breakable, not
so special plastic cork.
Some things are meant to be a one time thing, but nothing
will ever be a two times thing. Ever.