I feel so lost. I'm confused all the time. I'm out of
control, nothing is right. I'm running away and not
stopping. I'm angry all the time and hurting, I'm not
talking, I'm crying all the time with no reason.
I'm skipping school, just not going, I sit in my room all
day listening to music and being quiet. If I go out it's
only in the evening when it's colder.
I hate not knowing anything. I hate feeling this way and not
knowing why. What is wrong with me? I don't want to do
anything, I want to sleep and forget about everything. I
want to be left alone and at the same time be saved.
It's all too much for me, I can't do this anymore.
Everything is falling on me. This feeling is so familiar. I
know this feeling, I know where it leads and I know where I
end up. Why now?
I hate that I can't control what I'm going through, why
can't he see that I'm falling, why can't he see that I'm not
happy, that something is wrong!! How can he be so blind?!?!
I want to stop crying, I want to fix this hole inside of me.
I want this emptiness to go away.  I don't know what I want
but I what this to stop.
If I need to run away I will, maybe I just need to talk to
someone, maybe I should.
I hate the way I feel, I'm confused. I don't know why, I
guess that won't change, will it?!
I think that I'll just be quiet, no one needs to know. It
won't do any good.