something dreadful is going on inside me
sheer panic rushing down my blood andrenalin pumping

fear, fear in every essence of my body

fear of things to come, of unknown future, fear of myself
the most terrible Unsetteling feeling burning like fire in
my bones, a feeling so overwhelming so stunning i freeze

i breathe heavily, thoughts are speeding through my mind, i
have lost control over myself, i am so sharp so aware to
this moment and this moment alone.

nothing exsist but this sheer fear and dreadful feeling

im feeling sick, i want to throw up but i can't

this is so massive and overpowering feeling, that i almost
lose grip with reality.


amazing how fear takes you over, like the drakness takes
over the light.

in split seconds.

writing doesn't make it any better, reality has slipped
through my fingers.

sorrow and pain takes it's place, sadness from the likes
iv'e never felt before.

what is this? nothing has changed...
so why