When you're with him it's like you're blind and deaf
You forget all the pain and tears,
It's like he never hurt you
You don't remember what he put you through.
It's happening again
You know it,
But you're doing it.
And I see you coming back to me crying,
Not understanding and hurting,
And if I could hurt for you I would.
Because I know how he makes you feel,
I know you think this time it will be real.

Why when I hurt myself its wrong?
You're doing it too,
I shut up; I don't want to upset you,
I'm writing to you, you did it too, remember?
And I know it's hard! I barely do it anymore, and it's
addictive
Like him!
You're doing it again; I'm doing it again,
We both asked for the same thing, to stop,
.But that's not happening, not any time soon

I'm your angry memory
And you're the special heart.
You go back to him every time,
I know you know you're wrong,
But again I'm screaming,
You can't hear me!
It's happening,
You're going to get kicked again,
And if I could hurt for you I would
Because I like pain, I feel Comfortable with it
But I can't and that's fucked!
I know you,
I love you,
I'm sorry.

This is it, you won't hear anymore about this or him from
me.
I hope this time I'm wrong.