At these moments
when I need you the most
you should have been here
you should have been guiding me now
and helping me finding my way
you shouldn't go away
you should not give up
not now- when I need you the most


you always taught me  to be a fighter
not to give up
but look at you
you just did it


do believe me I know the pain was insufferable
I remember  in a very precise way
the way your face looked like-
full with suffering, and  pain
but still
you should have been here now
with me


I may sound very egoistic right now
but do believe me
I have my own reasons


lately you are always in my mind
the dreams are increasing drastically
and I'm always thinking
about the things you used to tell me
the memories always makes me feel
more confused than I was at first
I'm looking for signs
but I'm hardly catch them all


sometimes I wish I could see you even if
its only for a few minutes
just to ask you a few questions
just to tell you a few things I want you to know
things which will make you very proud of me
thing which will make me feel wonderful
but I know it won't happened again


-so
my dear daddy
wherever you are
I hope the pain vanished away
I hope you are fine some how
and I just want you to know
life are not the same without you
I miss you
and I wish the fear
which had suddenly attacked me- will vanish soon
I promise you that your memory
won't ever vanish



"take care of yourself"