I don't know which is harder,
Fighting desire
Accepting obsession
Or climbing the walls because of both
The pressure in my chest
The pain of breath
Or knowing that the road to heal is long
Staying away
Runing towards
Or choosing neither
Objection of mind
Lust of the body
Or not knowing the difference

Seeing what isn't there
Borders on insanity
But what if what's there
Is not what I need to see

I wish it was easier
If only I knew for sure
That there in an end
To all this unknown

What comes to me alone at night,
The need for a touch
Just one kind word
Or maybe simply knowing there's someone there
A soft whisper on my ear
A sight to remember
Or just nothing at all.