My darling,
I look around me, as I walk down the street for the last
time. Flowers all over the park I'm walking through. All I
can do to remember life as beautiful instead of the way I've
seen them for most of my years. I am sick and tired of
hurting you, so I must stop it all at once. I just wanted to
say I was sorry, and I never meant to hurt you the way I
have. Maybe you can find in yourself the strength to forgive
me.
I love you. Always have. Always will. So take the love and
comfort that we have shared, and make it your own. Your
up-side. Let it guide you to the next person that will light
up your life much more than I have.
I want you to be strong for the both of us. We know you can
be, so please be the strongest you can be. My passing will
not be easy, I wish to believe that, but as it seems - I
cannot. There is no faith in me anymore. So let me go to my
own private hell, where I won't have you or love to keep me
warn and loving.
I have lost myself so long ago, and that's why I can't keep
you to myself. I can't have the guilt of killing you from
within'. You have a beautiful spirit, so full of love and
grace, your mind filled with caring thoughts.
I wish to die, so that I shall bother and pain you no more.
All that remains unsaid is...
Hope you have a better life than I had,
I will love you forever and for always.
Me.