i'm writing this from poland
travelling over there
no matter what i saw
no matter what i felt
i'm stuck in this old song
which says i can't feel anything
and i wanna
still in some strange way
i wanna feel what a regular girl would have felt
how bad you acted
how you fucked me up
i wanna break apart
just to feel it again
and i can't
i'm writing this from a strange state
strange state of mind
i dag inside my brain
wasted days to feel
anything
but i didn't
can't tell if i wanted you that bad
can't tell if it hurts
can't tell if i want you back
can't tell if i'm happy we just let it go
but i want somebody  who can dry me off from that rain
i don't know who but i'm patienceless
from all the guys i passed through
you were the last
if i would have fallen for you
you would have got it all
for me it's only unconditional love
just like a dog
you could have got a loyal and a royal bitch
now
it's just
"next, please!!!"