Well, I never really saw it coming,
I just saw it go away from me.
Sleepless nights of dying of shame,
There is really no other way out.
The razor in my hand says it all, I assume,
And I know I should fight all the way.
And as the blood flowing like a river on my legs
I heard her soft sobing in the next room.

Dark skies are gathering in the skies,
The rain washes the memories away.
But there's a pain that's been cafved way too deep
And even the waters can't clean my infected soul.
I reach out of myself and looked right through me,
A proove that I don't really exist.
I walk down through the deserted streets,
People won't look into my eyes.

They say that time is a healer
But now my pain is something new and unfamilliar.
I walked by my grave in the night
And I saw my name carved in red-blooded words.

I fell down on my knees and cried,
The tears fell noiseless to the ground,
And i cried:
"I'm nothing, I'm just a waste of time,
Just take my soul and let me die.
I'm nothing, I'm just a waste of life,
So kill me, I don't really worth all the energy."

Well, my father was never really around,
He just walked away without a fight.
But I can say that I don't really regret it,
I hope he's soul will burn down in hell.
Raindrops on my window are gatheing in a form
Of my face, but I can't really tell them apart.
Although it's me who's falling apart,
I can still hear her crying in her bed.

They say that time is a healer,
But now my wounds are not the same.
I walked by my grave last night,
Saw my own body lying with wide-open-eyes.

I fell on my knees and screamed,
The tears fell noiseless to the ground,
And I screamed:
"I'm worthless, I don't want to live anymore,
I'm begging you, I'm losing control!
I lost all the faith, so please take my soul,
I'm hopeless, I don't deserve to live at all."

Oh, the rain and thunder went crazy and wild,
And then a bright light shimmered in the sky,
I felt so unholly.
And then I stood on my feet,
I'll never regret it...

"Just kill me, just take out my soul!
But where should I go?
And what should I do?
Just leave my body lifeless on the floor!
And all I ever wanted
Was just a little peace of mind."