My name is Jahonathan, I live in a universe with no gods or
supreme-forces.
Here, the people cling to superstitious beliefs in order to
maintain their hope in this 'godforsaken' universe. Well,
you have to agree it is hard to live in complete despair and
sorrow without something to pray for, some place to store
all that troubles you, 'cause your heart can explode and
your mind might collapse.

Here, in contradiction to common beliefs, the first state of
the soul's development is Heaven - before the birth - in
that stage the soul is at peace, no worries and no needs, it
is a being in conception.
With birth, Hell begins; hell is a stage between the birth
and death, full of unjust suffering for the innocent and
fortune for those who create these sufferings.
When hell ends, nothing awaits, the conscious reduces to an
empty void - after all, from enduring all that pain... what
remains is an old used rag, torn from pain.


I live in a politically torn country. That country's future
is no longer clear, whether civil war will occur,
militarized dictatorship will take place, or neighboring
countries will attack.
People try so hard to influence the situation and once
again, I fail to understand what is so enjoyable in living,
what is so rewarding with continuing it, that people seem to
try so hard and make it work when all odds point to the
worsening of the condition.

People put so much effort into improving the world that they
will only see decaying.
Speaking of the decaying world, the situation is terrifying,
exaggerated unrestricted behavior - so called 'liberalism'
leads to the decay of morals, renders law useless and
invokes the conservative side to become extreme in their
opinions and actions.
This causes the population to diverge into two groups:
exaggeratedly liberal and extremely conservative.

And me... I'm just a small screw in a big machine,
meaningless, trying to work my way through in life, coping
with that, adapting to this, enduring one suffering and
ignoring another pain, keeping my head above the stream,
carrying a heavy burden of responsibility, trying to figure
out what to live for, because all of my loves have failed
me, most of my trusts were in vain, the importance of my
caring was neglected and whole of my efforts were
overlooked.

I stand still, in the universe I live in. --- In the
reality. Come and visit, don't stay.