We had another meeting today.
The contract was not specific enough, and it had to be dealt
with.
The work is so hard, I often wonder if it is worth the pay,
as high as it is.
All are envious of me, as they can see only the rewards.

They do not have to face her everyday.
She can read my mind and push every button I have.
I often have thoughts that I should give it up and let her
win.
But I know I must not show that I do not care, or the loss
will be total.
I have tried to bribe her many times, but it did not win me
anything at the table.

Does she feel the same? Or does she enjoy the struggle?
I can not ask and reveal my weakness.
I know many work just as hard, but they do not get what I
get.
I hope she feels her pay is worth it, that her gain exceeds
the losses.
Or maybe the hard work does not seem so bad to her; maybe
she enjoys it all.
I see her smile with every small victory, and after all, she
does win so many times.

I sometimes dream we will finish the contract.
Everything will be clear, no more discussion.
We will relax, enjoy what we have accomplished.
But I know it will never be, the contract will never end.
Something new always comes up, that we did not think of
before.
So all I can do is keep trying.