There are times when I forget how you feel and what your
whisper sounds like. The way you taste and the feel of your
skin. It's times like these when my vision goes black and I
can't feel anything but emptiness. It's at times like these
when I want everything just so I can make it into nothing.
My destruction of everything i love is inevitable, and
everything I've ever been proud of will be thrown away. I am
enlightened, and I am miss destruction. I want to take every
good thing you will ever say about me and throw it in your
face. I want to scream until my throat ruptures and bleeds
and until there are no more words. Until there is no more
air. I want to take that sad look out of my eyes and put it
in yours. I want that look right before you cry. I want to
drown in your misery and I want you to know it was because
of me. The only way you could earn my love now is to just
give up. Let go. And even then it would just be a game of
let's pretend. It wasn't love. It didn't hurt enough to be
love.