what's it like to be beautiful
and how does it feel to be loved?
tell me,
maybe i'll feel it too

don't touch me-
that's not what i need
and save your pity
just look, try to listen
i'll shoot out the words
(i'll shout out the words)
(i'll cry out the words)

such an impalement
life - within me
a rusted spike through me
how long can i bleed?
(i don't know how long i can hold)

hopeless,
truly without a cause
a body in the river
floating
frosty flows lead me away
shards of ice rip through my skin

injured,
unwilling to heal
just waiting for the blood to stop flowing
out of these rapids of the river life
i tire from paddling
and take a dive
plunging
drowning
dying