Flickering lights upon the water
such a beautiful sight
and all I see is I
an image within my eyes

if i could take a leap to the past
to the time before i was
created, unasked
"would you like to be born?"
-"what for?"
"it's my will to have you"
-"and what of my will?
 oh, what will does an unborn have?"
"non"
"true, dear bearer, sad but true"

so pure, so human
more human then i wish to be
out of control
bound to life
i call it an addiction
no way to be free

perhaps i seek too much control
big request , ain't it?
being able to do as i wish
but what am i to do ?
when i don't wish for anything
when i'm not able to wish
not for a single moment of joy
nor for pleasure
just a hollow
emptied with lies
had to much of them already
fed on them for day and night

too full , i throw up
all,
all that you gave me
shoved down my throat
everything you said was heard
and now
erased without a trace

who am I?
a figure in the mirror
the same figure I can't look at
or am I what you see in me

flickering lights upon such peacefull water
such a disturbing sight
and all I see is myself
an image within your eyes
a reflection of what you see
someone that isn't me