You think u know them, for several years you've been they're
friend.
Talking daily, arguing, fighting but still friends...
You thought u knew'em,
you thought u knew more then u actually did.
Then came the blow.
it felt like an anvil in a road runner cartoon, only this
time it's for real.

You're struck in an amazing shock, you can't think
straight.
Can't walk straight, you're belly goes inside out.
You feel hurt? but why? you feel betrayed,
Your whole preception of them is going down the drain.

Maybe you feel more then you think?
Maybe you wished you could have been there for them?
The pain is unbareable, you now discover after a few years,
That you weren't that close, it hurts you.
It consumes you, you try to reach to the phone and ask why?
why wasn't i told?
why weren't things shared with me?

Have I been so selfcentered, that I didn't even see past
myself
Just to try and be there for my friends?
That pain again, piercing through my heart.
My vains screaming.

I feel so pathatic, how could i have wasted such wonderful
Times by doing nothing?
Now I feel it's all gone, things have changed and will never
be the same

How should I feel? you can never know my pain, and I truely
Hope you won't
I suffer silently, just not to make'em know, not to make
her, know...