i'm sick of doing nothing
i have nothing to do
i don't feel like doing something right
i want to do something big
i hate messing things up
i live in a chaos
i hate myself sometimes
i hate my friends right now
i have nothing to do with my life
there's nothing that i love enough and can spend my life
with
i wanted to study something.
i had an object in my life
but now i can't do it anymore
so i just don't care.
i don't believe i'll find what i'm looking for
i do believe i'm here alone for a reason
i do believe i've done too wrong to too many people
i do believe i need to face up
i do believe i need to give myself
i do believe i live for others sometimes
i know i enjoy my time
and i don't believe something will ever change
i believe i have nothing to do
i'm wasting my time here
for a reason
for others
i'm not supposed to be with someone
i should give more
think less of myself
not supposed to ever find what i'm looking for
this feeling won't go away
i live ina chaos
i have no reason to change
no reason to study
cause i am here not for me and for a reason that is much
greater than me
and i have lost it all
long time before i was put here
on this earth.