My suicide was painless
thought that you should know
what it feels like to fall from
11 stories to the floor

And I am aware of who I am
and of who I used to be
I wake up from my dreams wishing
I was still asleep

But I recall the faces
on the people who should care
people who weren't there thinking
that I wasn't fair

And to my father, well I love you
and I loved you all along
you know I sing this song
because things are just fucked up and wrong

And to my sister, you would help me
or at least you would try
you asked me how I was to try and
see what's inside

And to my brother, well I miss you and
I wish that you were here
don't end up like me coz that's my
one and biggest fear

And to my mother, you're the angel
that helped me with your love
I'll spend the rest of time
looking at you from above

And you should know that I miss you
and I wish that you were here
I wish that you were near to try and
help me with my fear

And yes I claim to be one of those
victims in vain
you know I go insane when  I hear
no pain no game

And to my father, well I love you
and I loved you all along
you know I sing this song
because things are just fucked up and wrong

And to my sister, you would help me
or at least you would try
you asked me how I was to try and
see what's inside

And to my brother, well I miss you and
I wish that you were here

And to my mother, you're the angel
that helped me with your love
I'll spend the rest of time
looking at you from above

And yes I claim to be one of those
Victims of pain
you know I go insane when  I hear
no pain no game

And you should know That I miss you
and I wish that you were here
I wish that you were near to try and
help me with my fear

And you should know
This sad story will always end in tears
And pictures on the wall

this was Gilad's 3rd recorded song.

But will always be remembered as the "goodbye" song.

I believe it is hard staying tearless while listening to
this song.

recorded around january 2002

Tom.

May he rest in peace