There she was, lying on her bed, eyes wide open, staring at
the white ceiling.
Her lips turned red,  from about an hour ago, when she bit
them so hard, 'till they were bleeding.  her lips, were the
only thing that moved. they were vibrating as if they were
frozen as ice.

She grabbed her head intently, And for the first time in
her life, her mind was blank.


She got to the point were she doesn't even care that she
hasn't got a clue about what to do with her life.
The point where there is only one solution to everything.


So many times she thought about it, so many times she
tried.

No more cowardice.
This time- she's going for it.



There she was. The eyes that were once sparkling and shiny
were now dead, meaningless, and yet... so full with
meaning.
Her bloody lips were shaking almost hystericaly, and her
skin was as pale as ever.
Her silky, white arms were covered with scraches, bruises
and blood, from about an hour ago.

She grabbed her head as if it was about to explode, and for
the first time..
She had no single thought in mind.

Except for one.

....