So different from what they think, so unlike this image of
myself,which i've been judjed with, ever since.
That image, no spells can break, no souls can take.
Feel so alone in the dark, like a frightened child looking
after his mother.
Mom, I want you to be there for me, I want to try, yet i'm
afraid, afraid to know the truth, that frightening truth
which has been my biggest enemy, as weel as my ally, for a
long time now.
You wont understand me, in your point of view i'm already
lost, you believe, there's nothihg someone can do to help
me, to get me out of it. you never tried to understand me,
do you think I like to be myself, do you think I like to
wake up every morning and see myself trought the mirror and
wish I was someone else, wish it is just a dream, a
nightmare.
You right, my image is impossible to be changed, no one can
break that treaty of all of who i am, it's there for almost
seven-teen years, since the day I was born.
i want to bury this day, in a deep underground grave.
together with my lost soul and spirit, to rest in peace for
ever, I want that day to be erraysed from the long journey
of the history of the humanbeings.
I want this day to be forgotten.
Just let me live my life without being criticised, for every
step I take, for every thing I break, it's my life, my pain,
let me live...
I cant stand it any more, why can't they understand that I
am not a bad person, I don't want to hurt anybody, yet I
won't allow to myself be a fool, and be hurted again in this
way, I won't servive it!
Have no strength to explain,  want someone, just one, who
will understand me with no words, who'll teach me how to
trust again.
There's no one out there to hear me, louder and louder I
shout...
"help, please help me, i'm afraid, afraid of myself, afraid
of you all, but please don't let me feel alone!!!"