I am burning.
I can feel my insides torn apart for I feel that I am
failing in it all, the role that I am trying to play and the
role that I get to play.
I can still hear it, the voice in my head, be it my
tormenting conches or the voice of my Lord in heaven that
speaks to me from inside and the voice just keeps on
reminding me as it burns the question deep into my mined.
The question strikes me with fury for I know not the answer
to this complicated Enigma: "Is this what you are trying to
save? Demon-like humans that are less then you"?
It pauses for a moment and then added: "Do you truly still
believe that humanity is worth saving, especially by the
cost of your own torment"?
And for the first time in what feels like a millennium
pushed into a hart beat I do not have a true and honest
answer, and it burns more and more as the questions returns
again and again.
I have put my fate in the hands of my god in heaven, I have
chosen to play the role of his angel on this earth, filling
my self with goodness so I could spill it into this world,
trying to save this Humanity from its distractive nature,
yet the demon side seems to be so much stronger... This
world is dying, should I die with it?
As I hear the screaming of the victims in my head, their
begging as they are beaten for no reason at all. I see "my
kind" act like demons that no doubt they are, I feel rotten
inside for my failure to teach compassion.

It was then that I sew her... my love, she is the reason I
where there anyway, passing through the demon border just to
have a small glimpse of her.
She stood there as her demonic "friends" tortured those poor
souls as if it was some sadistic show for her pleasure, she
did nothing... I felt like crying.
So now what?!
Should I try to set her right and tear her from the demonic
influence because I love her or should I leave her to rot in
the fate she has made for herself, let the demon-likes eat
at her soul?
I do not know... But, as a conclusion I can say this as a
better example for the dilemma that I have:

Lucifer the fallen angel, the morning star, once said:
"Why should we, the angels of heaven, serve humanity? They
destroy all that is bestowed upon them, they are weak beings
with a taste for the suffering of others, I shall not serve
them, NO! They do not deserve the guide of our kind, I'm
divine and I shall not serve those who are less than me"

For that he was exiled from the sky and went to rule hell,
where he devoted his existence to the punishment of the
Demons that are man kind, all those who where not allowed
into heaven for their evil deeds. And on the gates of hell
he wrote the words that are still burning on the demonic
gates of hell to this very day:
"ABANDON ALL HOPE, HE WHO ENTERS HERE"

And the demons of this world will surely be punished by the
words of god:
Tehilim Chapter A paragraph 6: "For God knows the ways of
the good, and the ways of the evil shall be lost."