Why is it so hard?!
I can't even understand what the word "hard" means, it feels
like every thing I do, is harder then what it suppose to.
Every feeling I feel is more painful then the one I felt
before, the thoughts about the future are more confusing
from the past.
About the present, I can't even think, it seems to be a big
black hole without an end, I'm falling with this speed, I
can't forget.
I thought, this one, who I still want, will help, but no!!!
How can I lied to myself this much and allowed myself think
that he worth my trust.
I was wrong, he's no different oh no, he's just the same,
now I have lot of pain.
In every story, movie or book, a friend suppose to stand by
you no matter what, help me forget this one, who I still
want. We're supposed to share our problems, and try to help,
and if one of us can't talk, just to sit there, without
making noise, as if the solution is the voice of the silence
itself. Maybe it's just a movie, however, I know that she
doesn't care, so maybe she's not supposed to be there?!
I can't stand the words she says, no more! She had already
won, however, for me it has never been some sort of
competition?! Why can't she understand?! I just want to be
her friend.
Maybe I complain too much, the only thing I want is travel
in the past, return to that time, when I could trust.