Sometimes I have to pinch myself
Just to know that this is not a dream
That this is the nightmare which I live in.
It hurts when I pinch myself,
My heart is bleeding.

Sometimes I have to talk to myself
Cause I have no one to talk to
No one who will listen.
I get so irritated talking to myself,
I am a shell who will not tell its secrets.

Sometimes I have to scream
Just to know you can hear me
But you always choose to ignore.
You yell at me when I scream,
I scream back at you, inside of me.

Sometimes I wish it would all come to an end
Cause the agony is getting hard to bear,
The tears are very heavy on my soul.
I will no longer be,
No one will ever miss me.


מרץ 2002