And so i retreated
to my painting of pictures
even if only
in my head
a safe haven
please know
the tickets to me
are sold out
and i probably
will not be showing
anytime soon

And for those of you
strangers & estranged
emotionally awry
challenged in the perception
of territory and belonging
we're not the same
organism
and there will be no
symbiotic behaviors
the germs are attacking
your sense of order
to a point of dismay
attacking your cell
and if i am of you
i will gladly go down as well

[pause & relax post-climax]

Waiting for winter
the past three
in early hibernation
i'll take a rain-check
on your dry autumn
your optimism
expectation
and planning of things

I told the little one in me
"let it mend
at least try to let it
try"
he thought i was a psycopath
for three minutes
but i have since
responded to an image
of a mutilated whore