I need to love you.
Maybe someday I will learn how to deal with you, with us.
I know this is a teenagers' love.
But why does it feel so wrong?
At the beginning I wanted you so badly.
I'd never thought I'd have you.
But now I do have.
And why does it feel so wrong?

It used to be a small feeling, who just wondered once and
again in my gut,
But now she keeps attacking me even when I'm with you.
Almost only when I'm with you,
And why do I feel so bad?
And why does it feel so wrong?

I just feel like I'm not supposed to be with you. Like I
don't disserve you, your touch, your comfort.

I just know that you will walk out someday soon.
And even if you don't,
Why does it feel so wrong?
Sometimes I just feel like I want to run away, run from the
pain. likr i do not want to be with you anymore.
And even when I stay.
Why does it feel so wrong?

Now it's already been months since I wrote that... and now I
know why I felt so bad...