I'm sorry it happend like that ....
I know the way you feel,
you must hate me badly by now!
I hate it.
Why did it happend?
I need you but you disgust me
 so childly, ugly from inside
full of hate .

But from the other side...
So much beauty from this body .
No, you can't hipnosy me!
I'll end it right now before I'll be under your spells ...

Dying asking for help ,
crying for god's mercy to relist me from your
terrible spells.