Hello my love,
I'm writing you this letter from the bottom of my dark soul
trying to bring it all to the surface and unfold myself to
you, and its hard, for every thing I believed to be true up
to this very moment had crushed and shattered against the
cliffs by the sea Left my empty in an unknown object.  For I
had never doubt your love to me until this present, and I
had never questioned you're loyalty that my trust for you
had grown out of. But as I grow to learn the truth my life
as I knew had ended left me paralyzed and speechless.
My dear, you were the one who gave me strength and you were
the one to give the power to go on with my life, to accept
the past and indulge it.
I trusted you, I believed in you and you let me down, you
never believed a word I was saying...
You tore my heart out for I had never in my life felt such
pain as in this moment of truth which felt like thousands of
knifes rippin' my guts and heart out cutting it into million
pieces. That day I couldn't stop crying. For I had never
loved another the way I loved you. We thought were not for
this world that our love and souls are much more then this
world can accept... was that all lie?
You left me, you deserted me in my most needed time, and for
that I can never forgive you.
I do not know what I'm trying to accomplish by writing you
this letter what happened happened and there is no going
back as I have learned a thousand times in my life. I just
wish you might feel a little of my endless pain which as the
sea washed my remaining sanity away, the unbearable
emptiness and loneliness I feel inside which I can't even
start to describe by hundreds of meaningless words which
cant reflect half of what is going through me while I'm
writing this words.
I do not know what the future holds for me, although it
feels as if I reached the end. You're face I might never see
but in my memories and thoughts. The future scares me
especially because I know I am all alone without your hand
to hold at night to guide me when the unknown surrounds me.
I wish I could say its going to be fine but as I walk alone
in this foreign territory doubts are filling me.
I love you my dear with all my heart and soul
Yours forever,
Me