My tears fall as drops of blood, raw, red
my blood is my savior
my very best friend, always here
always willing to flow for me,
to fall for me

urges to carve flesh, names,
words,
pictures
body of betrayl
body belongs to me now

Noone I shalll ever let close
distance is my dear friend
I shall live forever in distance
away from the world
away from myselfs
pain my only friend
my only God,
the only one who truly understands me
I shall remain forever alone
alone in myself, alone in my pain