When ever you feel you are all alone in the world, and
everything is changing around you, you loose control the
minute you need it the most, and you feel you don't know how
to feel, this weird feeling of not knowing what you are
going to do next when nothing is the same as it was. A
regular balanced person would look at those changes one by
one, but you are on overload and have to take care of things
all together or else-you are doomed. And then, at this
horrifying second you will feel doomed, there is nothing to
help you any longer. You start to cry and scream and get
angry without any given reason, you're starting to get
paranoid and soon afterwards you think that everybody is
against you, starting to be violent, to shut down to the
world, to any attempt of helping you, because you know it's
not real. Nobody really knows what's wrong with you or where
did this behaviour come from but this thing makes you feel
even worse and as you already know, there is no way back. At
this point you loose track with realty and you have
visions...  of hurting...  of killing... and still nobody
really cares about you as a person, they only care that you
don't do your tasks, and they have no willing of helping you
because its you, only because you have a part in this world,
this world is a big play that god directs, and you can't do
your part any longer. The big director is deciding for the
players what to do, like in any other play. Only when god
doesn't want you to be on this play any longer, there is no
way back. And this is what it's all about really. You're out
of the play of life. You're dead. And on real life somebody
finds you dead, alone, in some wicked place, everybody keep
saying all the time you haven't done your tasks yet, nobody
really cares about you or what you've been through lately,
or even all your life.  And somewhere, some viewers say it
is a good play, the play that never ends, the play of life,
everybody's life...


          But not yours anymore