Suicide notes

I wanted to say im sorry
I cant be sorry for me
Just for the pain
Just for the loss
Just for me being gone

Writing it now
Ill be gone in a few minutes
Writing to everyone
Saying what was on my heart
And soul

My enemy my friends
My family myself
I know pain will come
Hope they will not blame themselves

Confessing my love
The thing I did not do
When I was alive
Love would of helped
But love I did not get

I am dying here now
Loosing my essence
My essence of life
I cant handle the world
I cant handle my life

I never hated anyone
Was always looking for the one
Love wasn't at the door
But death was always there

And in the end
I take the shortcut
The lamers shortcut
But I was always lame

Don't blame yourself
Don't blame anyone else
Just blame me
Just blame the knife in my hand

You have to go on
You have to live your life
You must remember
That's what I wanted best
I just wanted to rest

I am not crazy knowing
What's happening now?
I am going to die
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye

Biteme