"you love him!"
"I do not"
Why does everybody think I love him more than just a friend?
I thought to myself.
"because you do" she said. She always knew what I was
thinking and what I was feeling... she knows that I love him
more than just a friend and she knows that I hate it and
can't let this happen and she knows why I can't...
I can't fall in love now, and do you know why? Because I'm
too afraid of losing him I'm too afraid that the whole
thing's gonna crash down and I will never see him again.
It's like a bad dream, and now... you know... now that I'm
thinking about it... it's a big thing. A huge thing.
"stop saying I love him!"
"I'll stop but admit it!" she never stops.
"I said I'll stop when  you'll tell the truth"
"but I am telling the truth"
"we both know that's not the truth" yeah we both now...
"good! Now say the three words and let's  get it over
with!"
"no! I don't love him more than just a friend"
"so stop saying... thinking that!"
why are arguing???? I hate arguing with her!


After a year something terrible has happened: he drank and
drove and I lost him forever. My fear has arrived I can
never see him again and not because we broke up and not
because he got hurt only because he died and went "up there"
without me and I wasn't even there when ho took his last
breaths I couldn't say "good bye" face to face
I feel terrible I feel guilt t feel wrong
Why did he take my soul mate?
Why did he do this to me? Wasn't I a good person or
something?
Bring him back! Please I'm begging here I'll do anything!
Just bring him back.


"well I was asked to tell about Ron well I'll tell you
this:
in January twenty firs t my good friend died, he just turned
23 he was smart... very smart but he made a mistake and he
drank and drove
he was just having fun with his friends like all 23 year old
do drink and go home. None of those 23 year old were
thinking even just a little bit about car accident and
probably to some of them it will happen and Ron...
"no I'll never have an accident"
he was so sure it will never happen to him and we believed
him just because there wasn't any reason to think different
and we made a mistake and we both pay the price.
I guess some of the people here heard about my feelings for
Ron..
Well I loved him more than just a friend but we were just
friends! Than you"


First name: Ron
Last name: Noga
Age: 23
Reason: D&D
Date: 21.1.02
Time of death: 13:00