The girl!

It was raining! As if god was crying with us ! Such a great
girl ... who would have known? ...who would have thought? No
one imagined except me!
Yes me! From all the people, the one she hated most knew her
best without her knowing!
Well when I first saw her the thought of her doing such a
thing would NEVER pop in my head! She looked like the
happiest girl ever! She was always with friends !Never alone
! She was pretty popular ! She was pretty! She looked like
the perfect  teenager with the perfect life !
After a while I got to know her better...closer...you see my
mother is a widow and her father is divorced. He is a rich
bastard , my mother loved him and they ended up married. We
, me and my mother moved in to their huge house! From that
point life got financially better. That's the good part ,
the other part is that something in me started changing! I
hated the change but lived with it!
My room was next to her room and the walls where thick
...except the ones of the closets which where so thin I
could hear every word she said ...every step she took!
Although I was living the room next door she always thought
I was a freak , we never got close. In fact we never said
hello to each other- ever!  It was like she never knew me! I
on the other hand got to know her well! Maybe too well! So
well, I knew that this perfect little girl with that perfect
little life is not so perfect! It all began this one night I
woke up to take a piss and opened the bathroom door without
knocking , she was crying! You would think this is normal
for a teenager but I knew it wasn't! this girl had no
problems! The next morning she was smiling and singing as if
everything was normal! She was a great actress! Others never
imagined that something was wrong, but I , I knew something
is wrong with this girl! After the accident in the bathroom
I sent a lot of my time in the closet listening to her!
Every night she cried! Every night . and the next day-
nothing , the world was back to being shiny and happy! With
time her crying got stronger , it scratched your soul ! I
cried more than once from hearing her crying! The weird part
was that while crying she would mumble to herself. Later on
I found out she had a video camera! She video taped herself
every night!
One day she slept at a friend , that was  a rare thing
because usually her friends would come over on weekends and
she would never leave the house! But this time she left and
I ...I hurried to take advantage of that ! I rushed in her
room and  took the videocassettes!  
I was shocked couldn't stop crying! Didn't go out of my room
waiting for her to come back! I thought I would talk to her
! she needed help! And there I was crying and she never came
back! And I ..I never said a thing! I can only excuse it
with not getting the chance but I never asked what's wrong!
And here we are gathered here today in memory for the 16
year old girl Sara who committed suicide on Thursday ! she
was found dead on the road and may she rest in peace in the
arms of god ! amen!