my update came and went, it's been about 7 months since my
fear and 2 and a half monthes since my update came, now all
that remain is disgust from myself, and lessons I've
learnt.. nothing is as it seems but my foolishness, hmm and
I guess this too is'nt that obvious to some people..
fear attacks at strange points and this is a boring time.

I can count from 1 to ten and nothing will change.. I know
this, still hoping that in the breath between 5 and six I
will stop.


one, two, three, four, five, six, seven eight, nine, ten.
nothing changed.
shit.