You'll never find me at home.
I'm not a" home person".
"That girl" they said, "she'll never fit!" And
they were right. I didn't.
I tried to paint my world in the colors I like,
but it didn't match the furnitures I guess. I
liked it though. Dad wanted to paint it back to
its original color and he tried to take the brush
from me, I wanted to give to him, I really did!,
but my hands refused.
I guess I wasn't ok with him, I probably did a few
more things I cant remember.
I felt kind of dizzy. Then mom asked me something
that from some reason I confirmed.
Then they took me to hell.
I know what you're thinking, but it's not red and
hot and there are no monstrous creatures around,
and it's not icy either. It's more like our world,
demons look like people, Satan looks kind of human
also. Only it's odd. Every one wears white, I was
also confused. There's a white long hall-it's
probably the path way to life, then there's my
room, it's not very big. Every day they come and
feed me with pills and talk to me. At the
beginning I didn't understand what's so bad about
it, then I realized it's because hell is white,
anonymous, normative-dead.
I closed my eyes again, letting the other pair to
replace them. It didn't take long time 'till I was
out of there.
Some truck stopped by me. "Drive" I said, "where
to?" he asks. "Heaven" I answer.
I know what you're thinking, but it's not made of
clouds and the angels here don't have wings.
God?, I some times see him lei on the grass or
swim, I never thought he's real, but it turns out
that he's kind of cool (for god you know..).
Heaven is awesome, I don't want to get beck to
life again, I feel here more a live then ever.
Don't cry mom I'm ok, I'm still there, you just
gotta look for me. Within the art, behind the
words im some where high now, higher then any
tower, no longer buried under pills and tears and
doctors.
I'm fed with my own dreams and not shiver of
yours.


Beautiful death.

הילד שרצה לטפס על האולימפוס "לא אהובי, בעוד שעה תגלה שבאולימפוס אין דבר מלבד קור בדידות ושקט, כי אף אדם עוד לא כבש את הפסגה. ועם כל אהבתי והערכתי אליך, בקשר לאלים, רק אלים רואים אלים - ואתה בכל זאת עדיין לא אחד מהם."