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עזבתי. 
לא אשוב. 
מישהי אחרת תפסה את מקומי. 
ואני? 
 
 
 
 
 It was the first time in many years that had passed and 
would pass that I became conscious of myself. No longer a 
crying scream in the night, but an entity with a beat in her 
chest.  
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 Lucky was scratching again. She couldn't make herself stop, 
although the flesh of her legs had long ago been ripped 
apart by her nails. She had initially attempted to resolve 
the issue by trimming them, but the itching never ceased.  
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 The following day, some boys had begun to play ball in the 
park, and crushed a few flowers.  
"I must protect you! I must take you away!"  
"This is my home, here I will stay."  
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 quiet and patient, 
i sigh with my back hunched,  
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 כבר כמה שנים שיש לי מין פנטזיה משונה שכזאת... אני רוצה זין. 
לפעמים פשוט נראה לי שלאנשים עם זין הרבה יותר קל בחיים.  
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 Flee! Cowards! 
as we, alone, remain  
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 She sits in her corner, viewing the world, 
Shadows pass by her as the food begins to rot, 
No one to comfort, no one to see, 
In the background she plays a sweet melody.  
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 At the dawning of a new day 
A little flower raises his sleepy head  
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 Closing a lid over my head, 
Flushing the water over and over and over again.  
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 Puppet breathing poison now  
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 Unable to find a reason, unable to 
discover where it was I've wronged, 
sleeping alone, hugging a pillow, 
not falling asleep until all the crying is done.  
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 Is there anybody out there, 
Who just might be hearing my scream, 
Kissing the rain with passion, 
As I lay dying deep within.  
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 Seated on my spinning chair 
My face is covered with my hair  
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 I would tell them, 
That there is only one thing worth smiling for, 
One thing in the whole wide world.  
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 For every tear you made me shed, 
For every thought of self hatred I had, 
For every lie you told me, 
For every fake laughter you gave me,  
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 second star to the right we'll take 
and by the time the sun's harsh rays will light 
in Neverland we will be  
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 I am invisibile 
I am not really here 
This isn't my voice 
It's me you can't hear  
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 So many of them 
Just one of me 
I had to push back, 
They would not let me be  
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 I will suffocate them all 
Until there is not one left  
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 There is a Nothing, 
For which I'm wating for  
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 But this is no dream, and not a figment inside my head, 
The lips touch me, from the fingers I shake, 
I let this happen for as long as I can, 
The face doesn't matter, when you cannot see the man.  
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 I have a dream, but no one to share it with.  
I have a smile, but no one can see. 
I need some love, but no one wants to give it  
to a girl such as myself.  
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 I don't have an angel's voice  
Or an angel's smile  
I'm everything else but pure  
And my robes sure as hell ain't white  
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 and if Death your way won't make 
You can count on self hatred to keep you awake, 
and if even if that won't do, 
self mutilation can be fun too.  
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 Would you let me close my eyes, 
and drift into my world of Dream  
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 The more time passes, 
The harder it is to hold on, 
As the red water flows slower and slower, 
And each and every person refuses  
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 Why am I scribbled on a paper 
However, I'm too scared  
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 It looks disgusting  
I hoped for more  
Doesn't matter  
I'll just loose it like the one before  
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 Starve yourself, 
Gorge yourself, 
Even if you still haven't learned how to puke, 
No one will say anything anyway, because 
Everyone will choose to ignore.  
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 Sitting in the corner, 
Watching everyone's life go on,  
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 Tomorrow, 
I will do what's right, 
I will eat my veggies, 
And I will smile.  
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 And if you love her, cut her tongue,  
Show no mercy that has been done.  
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 If I said yes, 
would you be happy 
that I did, 
Or just because someone has?  
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 ילדות קטנות עוברות שלב, 
שבו הן פוחדות ללכת לשירותים, 
כי אלוהים צופה, 
כי אלוהים סוטה.  
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 אמרת לי לשתוק, אז שתקתי 
שתקתי, ולא הוצאתי מילה  
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 Forgive me mother, for not being perfect like my sister.  
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 I scratch myself until I bleed.  
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 There are almonds everywhere, and I save the world. A small 
girl is crying, refusing to let go.  
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 This is a part of me, a part that I cannot kill. 
Without it, I can live, but not in a state which would 
enable me to label myself as alive.  
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 לכבוד הבגרות במתמטיקה קניתי מלאי חדש לקלמר שלי. עטים שחורים, 
עט וורוד, מחוגה ומחשבון. אפילו קניתי עפרון בשביל השרטוטים. 
ירוק כזה, סוג B2, שאני בדרך כלל רק משתמשת לציורים.  
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 Sketched with a B2 pencil on a 29.7x42cm paper.  
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 Sketched with a B2 pencil on mail paper.  
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 Sketched with a B2 and a B6 pencil on a 22.8x15.2 paper.  
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