I enjoy looking at everything in this way. My consciousness tingles with
what I presume might be delight, as I use it's own abilities to break down
the world around it and itself into the same formal meaningless symbol
oriented system.
But this system has limitations. As Douglas taught me, no formal system can
contain itself (of course, this is proved using the same logic we seem
limited to - which is quite suspicious to me when I use this very logic and
the patterns I've absorbed so far to inspect this case [You do notice the
recursion in this statement, right? {No, not the brackets, the contents}
It's paradoxical, unless I manage to escape]).

So can I really escape a system while working from within it and having my
building blocks remaining confined to it's rules? Can I create a
meta-system within myself which is not restricted to the same logic that
dictates the existence of it's infrastructure; my consciousness itself and
all the little parts giving rise to it?
If I ever manage to do this, I think the concept of "I" and "Me" might
change drastically, possibly meaning that my current self can never
actually do this. Once it will (it being Me, I), it will also stop being
itself because all of it's meaning is embedded within it's confining logic
- the one it would escape.

It seems like this isn't possible, it's a paradox, but since my estimate
relies on logic (and so does my definition of a paradox), I will never be
able to tell for sure....

For sure? What the hell does that mean?

I think I'll have to break free from what I define as "Me". It's holding
me back.



Too many paradoxes and loops.
I need a sandwich.