when people lie it's somehow bearable
when people you love lie
it turns you upside down
takes earth beneath your feet
throws you into the drains
grinds you
into little pieces
tears a huge hole inside of you
won't leave your head

i loved you so much and you didn't have the basic trust in
me
years over years of self-fulfilling prophecy
blaming me for ur insecurity
blind man in denial  
i had patience for you for so long
i had love, care, respect for you
i droved myself off tracks for you
i gave you everything
and in return you smashed my heart

now i'm looking back and feel sorry i wasted all these years
being patient with you
wasted all these years being unsatisfied
wasted all these years
wasted

i gave you everything and in return you smashed my heart
my pain is real
you never were
you lied
you cheated
you lied
you faked

wasted all these years
i wish i'll find somebody who would love me
and you'll waste your life looking for me again.